To create is to destroy

It was painful, but I did it. I actually deleted all my older posts. All my reviews, the music I like, memories of beautiful moments: gone, completely gone. It might sound strange, but it's actually

kind of a relief. Now I'm really ready for a new and fresh start. Now this is post #two in stead of post #fifty-something.

Here it is, my very own Wreck This Journal. I'm a bit of a perfectionist, especially when it comes to books. When I have read a book, it looks the same as when I bought it.

One of the first pages in the book says:

'Warning: During the process of this book you will get dirty. You may find yourself covered in paint, or any other number of foreign substances. You will get wet. You may be asked to do things you question. You may grieve for the perfect state that you found the book in. You may begin to see creative destruction everywhere. You may begin to live more recklessly.'

I will have to shower with my book, I will have to tear out pages, I will have to burn pages.. I don't like that at all, in fact it scares me! I'm afraid I will ruin it, but that's exactly what the book is for. When you wreck something, you may create something beautiful. I want to loosen up, I want to live more recklessly. I hope I will find a new kind of creativity in myself.

Yesterday I found a notebook. I got it for my birthday last year.

Got to love the title: Time for happy thoughts. Think the rest of the book doesn't fit with the title, so I'm gonna decorate it. A bit like WTJ (Wreck This Journal), but then with a real journal.

It's time for happy thoughts. What could be a better quote for new beginnings, a fresh start. Bring it on!